I'm only dreaming...

Just finished reading my posts since January. It has been different since then. My sadness and denial stage gone overboard...new hope and hapiness spring forth. I have cried enough. It's time to stop dreaming of what could have been and start dreaming of meeting someone new "in the near future". This summer has been everything but boring. It showed me a glimpse of hapiness awaiting me if I just hold on to my belief that God will never abandon me. If I offer my broken spirit and tired heart..I know I could make it through. I met so many people this year. More than the usual I am used to. And I found it refreshing. I saw meaning instead of doubt. I felt comfort instead of fear and intimidation. My parents realized that I have matured into someone whom I'm sure I want to be. I am a clean slate. no secrets. I am free.